westid

this last year i made a really big mistake and mentioned some shit to some people i should have just taken to the grave like a normal person

i don’t know my own strength but i do know i need it. i’m wide open to things other people just aren’t expected to deal with. the solution to everything that i go through is not to do it in the first place, even though it’s not even legitimate solution or advice just some twatty thing people say because they think that they’re better than you and can’t resist slapping you with it whenever they can

after a very eventful week, i spent most of my day writing, gobbling tablets, trying to source something dutty for my deep playlist. actually happened across some fat tunes, proper bass goin down, no fuckin about. deep.

i’m putting something creative together. going to become famous and shit, or die trying. that’s not a joke neither, and as long as i don’t put that on someone coming it that it would be all their fault… it’s not some kind of control freak suicide threat, and perfectly acceptable to speak

no, i’ve just been taking a bit of a look and got to thinking … it’s been a while since i did something that was properly creative. i turned one typical day into a feature length film. driving around ain’t really classed as creative for me. but walking around was because i don’t know where to go when i think about going on another one – that and the one i did already was done completely while i was asleep

i’m going to make some sort of film, or series if it starts off good enough. there will be a next level message in there somewhere, but some of the things i wouldn’t really make any friends if i put them on camera … re-create them using people i know as actors, in a part piss take, part “what’s really goin on” demeanour

the only character i can’t edit into something that i want to look at …. is me.

even though i’ve always been different, i’ve always avoided dick heads and violence. no one else can play this role, but it’s still just an act as long as some dick head thinks he’s got my number

i think it’s time to be who i am, properly though. i don’t want to hurt or frighten anyone, i just have as much right to do whatever i fuckin want as anyone else

if you knew me in real life, you would know it matters to me giving everyone a chance to be right with me, and treat them with courtesy and respect. this is what i was brought up to do, and you would also see that i will do what i can to earn the reciprocity of that and the general company of good people i would hope to keep

enough writing. i’m going to have a video call with some adidas girls who like the same kind of things as me, and while i’m at it, have a good creative think.