westid

the chances are astronomical, that something would happen in the exact same place. i worded out loud something that my grandad said to me in a dream, while i happened to be in the middle of making a brew, and the cup [didn’t break or anything] just fell to pieces in my hands, poured a load of hot tea onto me. people are like just co-incidence. don’t get me wrong – possibly the easiest way to convince me that you’re a moron is to come out with something like “everything happens for a reason” really? let’s stop by the chemo ward so you can espouse that to people. but to me, given how it was so unpredictable i couldn’t have just succumb to confirmation bias, i accepted this as an omen. then, on the 30th i was going on with myself and thinking about how an omen this indiscriminate sign would be pointless anyway since i wouldn’t even have paid enough attention to everything at any time, to even notice what it was about if it was even truly an omen at all. then, being shockingly true of that at the same time, the blondie who was gawping at me with such intensity i stopped driving, and notice that the car coming the other way was actually upside down. other things have happened, but this morning i suddenly decide to fuck off out for a bit to try and think about something else, and just a complete piss take had literally just convinced myself it was something and nothing, happens to have just been another accident in the exact same place on the exact same road, completely crushing the whole idea that it’s just chance co-incidence and it’s got nothing to do with the odds i’ve been beating again and again for months

what is it? i wish you would fuck off and happen to me already, or tell me what i’m meant to do. sick of following these breadcrumbs, when is some bitch going to have her oven wide open for me to naive pathetically jump inside. here’s something can relate to, always had a very unrealistic and highly unlikely way of approaching authority, particularly the ultimate authority anyone can have on this mortal man