westid

eight weeks of indoctrinated psychotic strobe light mega migraine mirage minage what the fuckin hell!!!!11 twelve fuckin times this is a fucking Y chromosome you bastards can’t you see! jjjjjjjjjjjesus [the latin american version and of such elongated pronunciation]

when i look at what is about to begin vs. what has fucking rocked the very foundations of a shite house of a job to the ultimate heights of things like i’d rather look this one down the fuckin barrel and not regret doin the usual for the rest of my life if it means a few people let out an exasperated sigh and remember i would probably wither away and die doing this, if it meant the ultimate and real knowing the fuckin monster that feeds for all of my life – and run the already accomplished anyway risk of looking like a prick

from here it’s stone cold sober, even though nobody else appears to have picked up on the fact that it’s already been that way for ages. to be honest, i don’t really give a fuck about the drugs either way, which is what i’ve always said – but been constantly ignored all the same. anyway the first bleeehhhhhh…. titrations of a new anti – see things in my own way clinical intervention that could really be the ticket to unlocking my radio rental, chicken oriental, monu fuckin mental … type – things

no i’m not selling them, no i’m not sharing them with you, no, for the first time i think … i actually didn’t feel that much enthusiasm [fear actually, of what is left when an otherwise fundamental part of everything seeing things that are not there when i need to conjure them / people who inspire and motivate me that stand side by side when i’m going through yknow real talk] this is never taken at any point by any clinician as something that’s considered a good thing – but i don’t think all the shit your mind can make up is evil / must be destroyed – even though that’s what may end up seeming like what your mind is secretly augmented with military technology that has been especially made for – a good idea now and then, but that’s always been good for a laugh personally, not made any secret plans to betray all these people around me in the free world, like when smith took over that guy in the matrix, “we’ll see you”

appearances could be deceiving then, and he wasn’t sure the smell definitely is such a thing. although that smell happens all the time when i have my nightmares and never varies, it still manages to link up with something bad e.g. the one where i dream about the tablets and they are all fake that’s what they smell like when i go near the people who just look like they’ve had loads of mandy but in my goings on have been compromised by their weakness in accepting fake tablets as real because it “came in a blister pack”

this is just something i can say in all knowledge and does not connect me in any way to the people my message is just generally being said in hope / as one would put it in a bottle as a message / it manages to reach the right place in the foreign agent underworld of fake tablet manufacture and distribution so that it doesn’t stop anything from happening / encourage something to start happening, but can realistically improve the sort of disarray any such foreign agent is carrying out that may have been threatened at some point by a head of state pitched as a common enemy to the neo liberalist fascist prevailing demographic in our own state of which we are loyal subjects and of good faith and deed under the crown our king

(this is the message now) fake tablet people – next time you are talking to your clandestine fake tablet network – please can you say something while you’re talking to whoever at the other end just before the line goes dead a little bit further inside minsk – right hello everyone i am a prevailing voice in the national fake tablet community can we make the fake benzodiazepines into real ones? – although it does take the piss out of so many stupid people who will just eat anything that comes in a blister pack, we get it and that fair enough well funny, there is a warm and loving place in greater manchester waiting for you if you [whoever you are] decide in all disdain for our foreign / financial policies [or whatever you know i don’t know the recipe] to become the only possible source of real benzodiazepines inside the united kingdom .. that would probably stick some sort of middle finger up to their [we are not proud of it and certainly didn’t fuckin vote for it either] complete lockdown of benzodiazepines eh what do you think?

our doctors and nurses have turned into fucking entitled arrogant tough-love would burn your nan before they give you any more than 2mg for longer than a couple of days and say it’s for your own good while your nan’s fuckin goin away like an old carpet

because we don’t generally have many foreign sovereign governments or economies between us these days not naming any names that may or may not have promised to flood our mainland at some point no one was typing up any notes or anything … with things like i dunno people traffickers? / criminal nationals seeking asylum and that / “waves” of illicit controlled drugs i think a few of us in the fake tablet prevailing demographic of opinion remembered that / whatever mate i’m not here to judge (this message was completely out of the blue no one even knows what the fuck i’m supposed to be going on about i talk such a load amount o shite) yknow we might all sound like the same neo-liberal fascists but if i could sort out a few real benzos diazepam, clonazepam, lorazepam? go on then fuck it alprazolam may as well do more than half a job eh and walk [along the bottom of the north sea or summat] into manchester i dare say one or two people would be fuckin reight wi me and things look better from inside manchester trust me you would love it although i’m not sure why i said manchester it just seemed like the sort of place real benzos would fuckin fly out if someone were to hazard a guess out of me throwin a dart at the fuckin map like yknow

for some reason i didn’t give a fuck about this the whole time, but now i’ve got to fuckin rob myself of what is i assure you a fuckin beauuudiful imagination that would fuckin give you a run for your money if you were to one day wake up trapped inside – food for thought there – no way out, my fuckin turn, i will fuckin demolish and burn, the arrogance you will have to fuckin earn, the fuckin lessons you will – one decadently devastating bastard at a fuckin time – you will painstakingly learn

sometimes the beauuudiful people think they can stroll through real town with their money out like they didn’t notice i was once amongst them – before i was cast down forever but will always keep the ecstasy of that whole existence secret from the other ones – and they think i don’t know the fucking twisted things that could take hold of beauudiful people’s minds if they come it too close to the burning light of day and catch one of their most moaning and filled with their beauuudiful tears kinda fears

see i’m fuckin down but everything that you could get outta me and more believe it – but you’re gonna feel i promise you but you won’t know how, that every little bit you let yourself feed on, is diggin you ever so slightly deeper an hole. maybe you don’t give a fuck and just fuckin blast it go on indulge yourself, could you have forgotten all about it? very easily while you’re fucking rolling back your eyes and goin all in until you start to experience these little moments where it’s like you’ve started freely falling. do you think you can dig right down to the other side? it’s a long way down, but you will be so stricken with greed you might go right down in over your head like the quick sand i will sometimes let you choose and become a part of yourself you might start to have felt was one of them crooked vices but your perfect fucking harmless self i will look after for you so that you don’t lose

i wrote a few books over the last few weeks. although i would never want perfection to be the enemy of the good, it would be nice for it to live up to its name and play whatever sort of silly little game. no one makes time for things like that, but that sort of shit was where i probably not doing any favours think it’s at.

cruise goin down i think