i am a man enough to be, what doesn’t take much. i am calm before your storm. to survive the influence of you. my self discipline is strong, there is nothing my immortal soul cannot do. confident and upstanding, come what may ensue. your undisclosing expertise, silently but increasingly, can’t make me give you what you want me to
i always stay in control, which is easy for me and has always been. i can’t, couldn’t let you win, so for my own sake, or pride, or purpose – strength of will, sheer force of the mind. i’m sure i won’t have anything showing, that you could possibly get me wondering. this feeling – so sneakily, suddently intensified
threaded through your razor sharp words as is your gaze, it gives me the shock when you come closer and start to talk. and then … you step forward. one foot in front of the other; twisting, punishing into the very ground upon that you walk. you wouldn’t, couldn’t work your way within. i won’t let you see it, but my body language betrays me. the hypnosis corrupting my thoughts with unsuspecting sin. you’re so innocent and thoughtful, and kind. and now i’ve got this feeling – you stole my heart, tangled up my strings i pull to control but now it all backfires, and then they bind
that’s strange, your aura starts to surround me, your presence suddenly coming ever closer; melting away my confidence i built to face you. so overwhelming, what i start to notice you do. like these invisible hands that hold me, and feel so so relaxing. and on all over of my body, drawing asymmetric shapes on my skin with their fingertips. so unexpected, and totally distracting. your influence, i feel you whispering against my neck with your lips. i forget all about my
we never really spoke before yet i can’t help but feel as though you know me, if you want me to see you as often as you come, would you ever let me in? do you really know about me? what is this i always see? i will know what you want me to. do you want me to always notice you? will you ever tell me how you do it, or why? the very essence of you will linger in the mind’s eye
this perfectly timed moment, so annoying. it comes completely at your own choosing. you send me to descend into this torture – the shock is completely unbearable, but divine. when you begin to advance closer toward me, i can feel the shards of my own ego as they crush under your feet. it was so ready for you- broken and shattered on the ground. these splinters of my superiority as far nearer you pace, real slow- like no one’s gonna know. i would call out for help, but i can’t make a sound. your innocent eyes tricked me; i never thought i would have found your voice and this sudden grasp of confidence so commanding. in heart pounding fear, just the look in your eyes reduces me to silence. i didn’t look where i was going, and now you have me backed into a corner. the grip of your mind holds onto me tight
i didn’t know you had this inner darkness, pouring liquid gold onto me with your light. flowing platinum vines move awry, constricting my neck, i choke on your beauty, i’m not too strong to never fall for you when you do, it suffocates me until i cry
for about a week i’ve lived this over and over. let it fuck with my head in slow motion. looks like they’re giving you clues, or even better, you found me out. i wouldn’t tell you what i’m gonna let you do. maybe you can choose. come closer, you might wanna feel this too. an irresistible demanding urge, i never thought you knew. i wish you would do this to me without your people joining in, so we can both enjoy me fall onto my hands and knees, so wracked and ruined by this thing you do
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