something is going on around me. all kinds of people, participating in everyday life. they know who they are and have spent their whole lives being treated accordingly. this is how everything is, that’s what will happen
i say surrounded because i’ve lost my link that enables me to deal with it all. it would give these people the firmware that lets them participate with me
although they never say it, everyone thinks that it’s my fault. but that doesn’t matter because the process is irreversible. nothing will give me an extra entire-life to learn all that again
i’ve got no issues with anyone because they don’t recognise me anymore. how could they? it would basically mean that they are meeting a brand new person and nothing will give them a nice honeymoon to make that possible either
they’re probably still talking for all i know … but i got up out the chair and walked away from their pretty horrible fuckin display. blank faces with no feelings or a sould behind them. if only they would see me, if only i could help them to listen … but i’ve got no link, so even though it rests in their hands i’m not going to be able to find any sort of way, just to say bring it to me or tell me where i can go and i’ll go and get it from somewhere
i’m not going to wait the rest of my life for someone to bring it to me. bouncing off windows and doors, the furniture and the walls. what’s worse is … no matter what i do this is how they will remember me. so in case you were wonderin, karma’s confirmed bullshit..
there’s no possible way to get “out there” and take hold of that entire-life with both hands. perhaps you might not have expected it of me, but you should probably consider that i might have already tried that and no, it’s not happening. whether i like it or not, that can not change
no one that i’ve met in my lifetime has felt the sheer fucking impact. and i managed just as well as they did, you don’t consider things like that when it’s something that’s a part of you
i can still do anything that i want, except i’m out of sync so whatever it is i’m doing, it will be on my own
whatever. what’s the use complaining about it even to you people? i would never get that 1 favour from …. that would be the only thing i would change about my life so i could continue my life
this collective silence, a picket line that no one must break. you’re not very good at making everyone abide by your rules, but now you can chill because i’ve given you all the help that you need
it’s hard being a man who can not even find himself around love … and i didn’t used to be all about that for a lot of people. but i’ve just got a broken link, and i’ve not got a spare lifetime to build a new one.
i’ve climbed a long way … maybe if i let go now i will still be able to find it, if i somehow forgot to bring it with me and left it down at the bottom … i wonder what that fall is like …. no point speculating with you guys …. i’ll be doing it on my own
one last tune: https://open.spotify.com/track/7JwnmSN1F0o0GIk2OVJrt9
one last never just one tune: https://open.spotify.com/track/0QVJsWtmgj9SWZaLYiX2i3
one last hiding in the dark come on out whevever you are tune: https://open.spotify.com/track/5z5wYWL1IO6y2yEFBOiGt0
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