westid

it’s no secret, i’ve wandered into a few boundaries. everyone got what they wanted out of that, and i placed myself in the position that i’m supposed to – because it’s built into me. it’s not just toxic, it’s corrosive … eats away and dismantles basic things, it might not make sense to some of you readers … but some people when they get through enough of my layers, i will enable them. what’s frustrating is that isn’t enough…

in my world, things aren’t as straightforward and worth the face value as a normal person would just assume. i make things different – for the people to whom such changes will apply – and once that happens, no matter what else is going on, the reality of the situation is that things will just be different with me; for any of those people

i want to give someone some caviar. they need to know what it feels like, it will make them completely understand what’s going on inside and – even though i have more than enough reason not to anyway – i will never doubt the trust they will have placed in me to accept and find out for themselves … not many people would consider that i have actually done this for hundreds of people with their first time. i doubt they would believe me if i said so, but there’s more shit going on here than just that which needs to be realised

yeah, not something that people tend to feel the need for. you’re probably reaching for something rational that isn’t rationalised, and based at all in logic. so consider this …

some people you will encounter in this life are exceptionally advanced. when you’re that person … you have to know humility before you can grow to realise and accept this. arrogance has to be earned. they aren’t going to be bogged down by the same tedious shit that most other people will need to learn all over again every few years. they will remember all of that shit because they don’t need to try very hard to remember everything and will be driven by a next level passion to learn so much more

the normal rules weren’t made for these people, who are going to learn nothing beyond what they have already mastered ahead of their time; but i don’t know if anyone could take me seriously when i say what you can learn from me, i wouldn’t go out of my way to show just anycunt believe me, is all that you’re going to discover beyond the world around that has probably completely failed to be challenging in any way so far. i know this because when i started off in the world, it landed me in a situation where nothing challenged me… and it’s important because when it happened it’s not very clear where you’re supposed to reach for next when that feeling is suffocating you

usually i’m satisfied just getting someone to try on crocs for the first time. it gives people the same feeling believe it or not, i just can not explain why or how but it’s an example of what kind of feeling that is. watching caviar happen for the first time, however… sometimes, it wants someone

i don’t have any ulterior motives, but there’s important shit going on at the moment – i need that unquestionable trust to work both ways, because to put your trust in someone means very little if likewise you are not trusted. ridiculed as i’m sure my reasoning here would most likely be, it still comes as a surprise to people when they realise that the world doesn’t come crashing down around them in a coronation street plot made of some ignorant tabloid sensationalism like they were expecting. sometimes – fail as it might to be apparent to other people – that’s actually the important bit. you could end up spending your whole life being taught by dead eyed prejudiced people to deny yourself this breakthrough, at any cost. and they would feel like diminishing you, robbing you of some perceived sense of entitlement, somehow made the world right again … because they don’t get to have [an unfair advantage] so why the fuck should anyone else be excused from that responsibility? sadly we will never fucking know

now who is struggling with their logic?