watching anyone around me, they weren’t impressed with the way that they found me. accelerated motion swaying tapping feet all around me, can’t sit still – so when they clock me motionless and laid on my side that’s something that used to make them start speculating that i bought the wrong ticket because it looks like someone’s having a bit of a bumpy ride. no user servicable parts inside
to be recent, this were going back about ten years or so, and those amusement parks got closed down a long time ago, most of them i didn’t really get the chance to know
do you think i can’t give you a good feeling? i will push you up the wall and into the crawl space through the ceiling….. here’s a nice description that you might consider sinking into your thoughts to keep you buzzing until some long needed required reading: electricity impulses that start firing in the mind don’t always escape into the body, leaving no outward signs or symbols to interpret or find. sometimes an unwanted fixation will take a couple of minutes to depolarise so i can set it aside. if you interact with me while i’m like that, casually come through when you come to … the way that you just always do no matter who, i’ll respect you because you actually came up to me and tried – then you will get my presence trust loyalty appreciation and a friend in whom you can truly confide. such a way that you can get deep, thoughtful, situation intensified, truly electrified
i am just comfortable the way i am usually ,and if no one is talking or chilling with me laid down on my side – but no malfunction everything’s still going on i just like to get some of these frequencies happening deep down inside. if you want to share with me your unusual quirks so we can both discover what works for each other – some fixations can co-incide and keep you up for days and days because you’re so engaged and occupied
my level: i love it when the road just goes straight, and i have smoothed out… and feel my entire body teases me with tactile sensations all along the service and takes my mind, really perfect feeling starts to sit me up and then i become exactly how i know i wanted to experience the world … perceptions of wisdom without the shackles of what has only been described to me as type 3 combined, leave the un-necessarily inverted direction of thinking behind. unfortunate hang-ups that people feel uncomfortable because it’s not “normal” are in my experience for the sensually lost, the spiritually blind
not stopped me for a long long time ancient history: let’s just have an objective thought that tries harder to aim more criticism at myself for a moment; i did used to pale out sometimes because i was not as comfortable with myself as i am now – didn’t have a consistent idea of what i wanted to get out of the situation, and even when i did – it took a few goes to get that as good as i am now at landing on the right level but now i fucking bring it there’s a next level finely tuned for any occasion
going to stop slagging myself off now because that’s for people who don’t know me. and there are no valid points left that anything they’re saying will turn out to be
i’ve got everything i want and my bills are paid. if you expect someone to be able to do something for you or take you anywhere, have needs or feelings that have to matter … actually i’ve got more about me now than i had in any love fixation where i’ve found myself going in deep for someone or commitment relationship
that’s not the only thing that i’ve set myself higher standards for now. all i am going to say is that there’s something that needs sorting and it’s now got my full and undivided attention. before, when i have been faced with a situation that i am unable to tolerate anymore – there is something obscure, i.e. an outcome
i’ve got something that needs doing now, and i’m not going to wait forever to see if everyone else is going to agree with the choices that i make but i’ve got my own “years of experience” and there was no induction or training course that they send you on to learn all about how
it’s either going to work, or it’s not…
things will change a lot when i come back through, with what i’ve got.
for those of you who long for my return: https://open.spotify.com/track/5JZ1jTanqLWVuThmZ6XRAc
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