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music link: https://open.spotify.com/track/7GIKkVSkY4JmQv5xLtGApQ

sometimes i think https://open.spotify.com/track/5JZ1jTanqLWVuThmZ6XRAc

masaka is awakening https://open.spotify.com/track/5wq8wceQvaFlOZovDtfr0j

to all nthe creatures within us https://open.spotify.com/track/5oa2tYNwwEIpFy7xPqECY7

i’m trapped here https://open.spotify.com/track/0ZWcGyut1MsdPWoQUtgNgR but only a beautiful mind… not some other place … will set me free

none of the people were here yet when [if you can imagine for example wherever it is around the place that you live, before you started to live there] all of that happened. but if you were you would know there is no realistic prospect that i will be allowed to move anywhere. some of them heard the conversations that were being had with me and they were very disgusted with the way that this was spelled out for me

please chill an give me chance to be reight – i have a complicated and untreatable sleep disorder – it’s not nice to look at especially for me, i can see how some people might have interpreted that the way that they did. i would be interested to know what you might have thought i was on because i have not seen anyone do something like that before. you have the capacity to be violent if you choose to do that, and act collectively because i am outnumbered, surrounded, and i don’t. but i’m the only dick head with a scar now in case i ever forget

if it pisses you off that i have cctv live streamed and recorded off the premises, it’s not really me that you should have a problem with. that’s what happened the last time i locked myself out, and a subsequent incident of a welfare check that went horribly wrong. … for one, remember getting jailed for 3 month for no reason… so i weren’t even here for it to be my fault in the first place. and having my place smashed up to fuck because someone saw their chance and took it good and proper, then deciding to express their summary disdain by breaking all my windows and leaving my home completely boarded up for two years, it might not have occurred that people will be in the company of their family close by, for an example. but i’m the cunt because i wanted to stop the nonsense and hold myself to a higher standard

some people evidently might not have considered that some next level attempts to just leave me homeless have been attempted, which might have been a bit more gratuitious and severe than this basic alienation for the common simpleton. i fear the public education system may have failed you … my condolences

there’s no further need to reign supreme. your dominance is successfully established. i have created a helpful diagram in case i forget who is in charge. somehow i’ve made a target of myself. in hindsight i was very determined to not do that, actually but ended up being anyway. https://open.spotify.com/track/0ZWcGyut1MsdPWoQUtgNgR]

i’m not a man of violence actually it’s never been something i want any hand in. the next thing that commonly happens is i will be confronted again where i am seen to have the conscious minded ability to stand up for myself. it always still feel like it was just as easy and will piss you off even more – not that i ever wanted to do that in the first place

you will remember a time abruptly beforehand where we were looking out for each other. if i had a magic wand i would go back to that and if we did i would not mug you off or disrespect you for giving me the chance, if you would see it in your hearts to allow it. whoever i am. whoever you are. internet people

if there was an open channel of diplomacy i will take it upon myself to not be able to end up in that because really all i was were just in the wrong place at the wrong time. i don’t bring any heads back to my house and if someone is taking the piss, asking around about you, i would have ./ still would tell you about it

if i didn’t end up there, when you look at the timeline of events laterally – i haven’t really had the opportunity to put a stop (or a start) to anything ever since that particular bit of what happened. social services will be here soon on a regular basis to help me form good habits that i have never taken the time earlier in life to develop. perhaps they could help facilitate a more chilled and normal situation which i would be pleased to be in

i’m pretty weird but i’m not the weirdest guy out there, it’s not beyond me to generally not try to set you up or fuck your shit up. even if i was equally as capable of this, i probably would have stopped doing it now and thought my particular brand of terrorising someonr was effective enough to demonstrate who is in charge of shit from now on

my typical behaviour at this time will be to keep my head down and try not to look like i’m asking for more, or in some way taking the piss. in case that’s not gone far enough

i’ve been bullied and set up all my life, there will probably be a number of subtle hints that someone else would have picked up on by now – i’m sorry i am not the most street wise of people and it may have been lost on me but never on purpose

but if you say hi to me and give me a chance, i will probably stop keepin my head down and then say hi back, we can take it from there

i know you read this place, i am a dr. im computer science and intelligent robotic systems i can interpret site analytics, and that’s kind of the way i intended for you to have at least a look in at some of my more prominent thoughts – how do you think A, D₃ and knowing me probably R was able to tell you about it? this is a small town bitchy cabals who come on here to fuel their ongoing hatred form like the cultures you would find on an agar place

i don’t have this nosey neighbour mentality; you don’t have to hide whenever you come round, i assure you i’m not looking [this misperception was more of an incendiary rumour than anything, i assure you my awareness of the existence of pornography is adequate enough to avoid running the risk of desperate times – i don’t think it’s going to get that bad any time soon]

i will not interpret any leniency as a zero sum game. if you think that’s what i’m like then i dunno where you would get your informatrion from, there have been generations of graduated tradecraft for hundreds of years – i helped to set a chapter up during my undergrad – i respect the sentience of the profesional courtesy, if i could help one thing about the world around me i would aim to be less .. beseiged … not saying i’m completely innocent here but message received can i stop wonderin where it’s gonna come from next?

i would want you to feel like you could do yours without having to give a fuck about me all the time, maybe if i am doing something that is not helping this it would be better to tell me even if it would seem something perfectly obvious to anyone else. this is a genuine lack of ability to keep track of [say, unusual items mounting up in the yard, for example] or failure to initially notice

if i could just get out of here you would have seen the last of me now and, well i was here first so it’s not really fair me just goin when i assure you that will not be an option for me, and it would be easy to just give up and not try i would rather put things right. i am mindful that people even in a parochial ephemera like this particular part of town … are just trying to make a living same as anyone …. so if you think i’m like that you have people i have seen who i met in part of a last setup, will know that i’m not like that at all, have seen me in a lot worse state than i am now this flat was a full on den. i am very selective about who i choose to bring here, because people have their pets and their belongings and their families and shit. i’m not blind to that, and if you saw what i was like then – this is nothing. i got sick of living like that and decided not to … it’s so illuminating to finally reach the state of affairs things used to be, like waking up in the morning and realising that nothing’s gone missing this week. i know simple mind simple pleasures

next move is yours because – i know you don’t know me deep enough to know about what happened before you got here, and if i don’t try to hand out an olive branch to the internet ….. you never will. but i assure you the more i might want it the least it is ever gonna happen, this is not meant in a bad way to you, it’s more of a situation i am unable to just change so it might be worth just going back to how it completely was right up until before and i will do what i can if you have any suggestions

pick straws or something and select someone to do the interacting with me if you would rather not, but while you get on with your shit i am trying to find a way to just straight carry on with mine. every time i get locked out something terrible happens to me because i’m effectjvely helpless to anyone who finds me but i’m not off my head. i might run away from you or not recognise who you are, this is because i’m in a very basic state of sleep and my executive capacity, short term memory, most of my basic neurological functions, such as peripheral motor control, are not functioning [/ properly] because i’m asleep

whenever i can be, trust

here is an easy to learn tune disciples made just for me to help explain this to normal people. it is a bit basic but it helps